First Trimester: complete
Well, I did it. I read somewhere that the first trimester of pregnancy is the longest (not just FEELS like the longest, but IS the longest), taking up 13 weeks (some doctors even say 14 weeks). Today I am 13 weeks, 1 day. And so far, not off to a great start, so I'm going to say my first trimester is 14 weeks. Though I'm fairly certain I was only feeling sick this morning because I got too much sleep last night, and I couldn't stomach my whole breakfast.
Yesterday was Garett's third birthday, and even though I think he's a big boy (hello, hormones), I know he's still very much a tiny human, and I can't believe how much your brain blocks out from previous pregnancies.
#1. Morning sickness/All day sickness. I know I was sick for Garett. But I don't remember it taking every ounce of energy out of me. I miss food. I miss being able to breathe in cold air and have it feel good, or cooking dinner--all these things make me gag uncontrollably. I can count the amount of times I actually have gotten sick, but the gagging is uncontrollable and I can't wait for it to stop. it's unattractive, and inconvenient.
#2: Exhaustion. Pure unadulterated exhaustion. The other day Tyler was scrambling to get all the house stuff done for our open house, he came back from putting the corner signs up and said "you're still in that same spot?" I think if looks could kill he would have been to heaven and back a few times in that moment. Oh I'm sorry, does my MAKING A HUMAN in MY body bother you? Excuse me for being TIRED.I know he didn't mean anything by it, but, again...hormones. I can turn into an evil step sister with one single sound or word. And I promise I fell asleep as soon as he said it to me. Seriously, though, I feel like the laziest person to have ever graced the face of the earth in these early weeks. Come on second trimester wave of energy!
#3: The permanent hangover that you can't medicate. No, I didn't take 20 shots last night, my tiny human has plans for me to never look presentable in public again.
#4: The checking of your pride at the door. Specifically your OBGYN's door. Peeing in cups, being poked, squeezed and prodded, weighed, and the MOST intimate of all--when the baby is actually born. This guy has seen it all, and is about to see it again. And so is my husband. Here's hoping after watching it all go down again he still loves me hahaha
#5: The fear. The paranoia. The internet lurking. The endless list of questions that you feel silly for asking, but don't care because you need to know and you need to know NOW. You would think all my fears and questions were put to rest last time, but they pop up and nag in your mind again. Don't worry, you're not getting any real sound sleep anyways. You have nothing but time to worry about all the things that can go wrong. Did you know 1 in 4000 babies is a hermaphrodite? File that under things you NEED to worry about: check.
#6: The lack of motivation and attention span. I just had a full thought about this section, and poof, it's gone. Fill in the blanks yourself.
#7: The emotional roller coaster. Sorry if you are a victim of my antics.
#8: How a plum sized human can make me pee 3 times a night already is surely one of the wonders of the world.
#9: Just how surreal it all is. I still go from appointment to appointment certain that there's not a human being in there. So every time I see that peanut up on the screen, the world and everything I just whined about fades away. The bonus of having another is knowing all of the amazing things that are about to happen to you. The baby smell, the amazing cuddles, this tiny human looking at you full of wonder and innocence. All the firsts. I can't wait to ride that bus again. It's no secret I don't love being pregnant. And the people that say they "love it" are surely lying, right?! It's not a pleasant thing, though it is a very happy time. It's what comes after that makes the story worth telling.
Yesterday was Garett's third birthday, and even though I think he's a big boy (hello, hormones), I know he's still very much a tiny human, and I can't believe how much your brain blocks out from previous pregnancies.
#1. Morning sickness/All day sickness. I know I was sick for Garett. But I don't remember it taking every ounce of energy out of me. I miss food. I miss being able to breathe in cold air and have it feel good, or cooking dinner--all these things make me gag uncontrollably. I can count the amount of times I actually have gotten sick, but the gagging is uncontrollable and I can't wait for it to stop. it's unattractive, and inconvenient.
#2: Exhaustion. Pure unadulterated exhaustion. The other day Tyler was scrambling to get all the house stuff done for our open house, he came back from putting the corner signs up and said "you're still in that same spot?" I think if looks could kill he would have been to heaven and back a few times in that moment. Oh I'm sorry, does my MAKING A HUMAN in MY body bother you? Excuse me for being TIRED.I know he didn't mean anything by it, but, again...hormones. I can turn into an evil step sister with one single sound or word. And I promise I fell asleep as soon as he said it to me. Seriously, though, I feel like the laziest person to have ever graced the face of the earth in these early weeks. Come on second trimester wave of energy!
#3: The permanent hangover that you can't medicate. No, I didn't take 20 shots last night, my tiny human has plans for me to never look presentable in public again.
#4: The checking of your pride at the door. Specifically your OBGYN's door. Peeing in cups, being poked, squeezed and prodded, weighed, and the MOST intimate of all--when the baby is actually born. This guy has seen it all, and is about to see it again. And so is my husband. Here's hoping after watching it all go down again he still loves me hahaha
#5: The fear. The paranoia. The internet lurking. The endless list of questions that you feel silly for asking, but don't care because you need to know and you need to know NOW. You would think all my fears and questions were put to rest last time, but they pop up and nag in your mind again. Don't worry, you're not getting any real sound sleep anyways. You have nothing but time to worry about all the things that can go wrong. Did you know 1 in 4000 babies is a hermaphrodite? File that under things you NEED to worry about: check.
#6: The lack of motivation and attention span. I just had a full thought about this section, and poof, it's gone. Fill in the blanks yourself.
#7: The emotional roller coaster. Sorry if you are a victim of my antics.
#8: How a plum sized human can make me pee 3 times a night already is surely one of the wonders of the world.
#9: Just how surreal it all is. I still go from appointment to appointment certain that there's not a human being in there. So every time I see that peanut up on the screen, the world and everything I just whined about fades away. The bonus of having another is knowing all of the amazing things that are about to happen to you. The baby smell, the amazing cuddles, this tiny human looking at you full of wonder and innocence. All the firsts. I can't wait to ride that bus again. It's no secret I don't love being pregnant. And the people that say they "love it" are surely lying, right?! It's not a pleasant thing, though it is a very happy time. It's what comes after that makes the story worth telling.
Yes - look forward to when its all over and you have that little human in your arms. I hated being pregnant - I wasn't even sick, but I was in pain all the time - the growing, the sciatic nerve issues, back pain...ugh! I had a horrible labour and delivery for the last one so I would just black it all out and think about when he/she is finally here...I don't even care about sleepless nights and swollen boobs...I would rather just skip right to that! Good luck in second trimester (I do hear it's better)
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