Tuesday December 4, 2012

Last night was awful! WARNING: Lots of complaining happening in the next few lines lol. First, my bus was late. My maternity pants were starting to irritate me because they're so hot on the stomach--then I got to sit squished up next to this guy who was watching Fringe on his ipad mini and making weird noises. There was SO much traffic coming into Embrun that I sat at the corner to get out of the park and ride for 6 minutes waiting to turn. No one knows how to use round abouts and then I get home and I'm grouchy. I told Tyler to eat leftovers since I didn't feel like cooking. I went in the house, sorted the mail, put my Pj's on, put some belly cream on and laid on the bed and cried and cried and cried--probably for about an hour. Ty had NO idea what to do so I told him to just leave me alone, and thankfully he did. (There's nothing I hate more then having to talk and explain why I'm crying when I have no clue lol). I was feeling so stressed yesterday--even though life can be WAY worse lol..Christmas time stresses me out--and this is the latest I've ever started my shopping. I have NO idea what to buy people and have no energy to put thought into anything. I was stressed because work is winding up very soon and I have SO many files to go through and organize and make sure things are in order and pack up my office and get it home. I was stressed about labour and being alone (I think about this often even though it's ridiculous) and just everything--I was just totally overcome with emotion and couldn't stop. I finally shed my last tear and couldn't cry anymore --so I washed my face, made some grilled cheese and went to the basement to watch an episode of Jerseylicious. That always makes me feel better :) I was smiling again before I knew it and thank GOD. I don't know how people that are depressed can deal with feeling so low constantly. An hour just about kills me. Thank god these weird hormonal flashes don't happen often! I took a shower after dinner to make myself feel better and had some water to replenish all that I cried out lol. Ty played with my hair and I fell asleep as soon as he started that pretty well! I was SO happy when I saw the weather forecast for today--it can rain all it wants, I just LOVE this milf weather :) Thaws the ground out so it'll be longer before snow can stay :) I just need the snow/ice to hold off for 17 more days until I'm done work! lol A guy brought me this "Tim Tam" chocolate bar thing from Australia this morning--I ate it and it was SO delicious...like a crunchie bar but not as offensive to chew on lol..I wanted way more then one..so i just ran out and grabbed some milk and a donut at tims...sweet tooth today! I don't keep much sweet stuff around the house so it's nice to indulge here and there while I'm out! Tonight I have to make my grocery list and brainstorm christmas gift ideas!! I need to go to the post office since one gift I bought my dad is in and then I can wrap the 2 (count them...TWO LOL) presents I already have andp ut them aside. Also need to mail out those thank you cards tomorrow after work since I forgot them today--remembering small things like that is the bane of my existence right now. It's nearly impossible to remember and they're sitting right on the dining room table--I literally walk by them 20 times a day. My Manager is off to Niagara falls with another manager this afternoon and our Director is on travel to New Zealand until Monday--so it'll be a quiet few days. Maybe I can leave a bit early one of these days! :D Happy Tuesday All!